Today I considered walking to the store in my pajamas & it made me realize...it's time to get a hobby, volunteer job, or a Man to focus on.
Man isn't an option right now. I don't do well with them. I expect too much & I'm also an example of what they call 'crazy pussy.' Men seem to take to me but even if I sternly warn them there's more here than meets the eye, they NEVER see it coming. Sure, I'm a good time, but if you piss me off you're gonna end up hating me...seriously, my next tattoo is gonna be a warning label like: Do not mix with alcohol:
I feel NO need or ability to work publicly. I'm even on medication! I went through a hard time at the beginning of the year (see Man referenced above) & I'm still slightly cracked. I think a while back I wrote on my Facebook, "If something goes down in my life & I don't write about it on here you KNOW I'm ashamed," so yeah, it was bad.
It sounds like taking pictures is my only option. Photography is something I enjoy & if I could find a subject besides Myself & My cats maybe it'd be a viable choice. Last year I wanted to do a downtown Roanoke project & I did get started....here's one of the Coke sign at the city market:
I could probably even sell them cheaply if I put a little effort in, maybe make $20 a month? LoL, it's fun to fantasize about being somebody but none of us are anybody. No matter who you are....I'm rambling!
My perspective today is: Even if you think you look cute don't leave the house in pajamas. For me it screams, lazy, depressed, unwashed....Though folks should know that lately my life's been so boring that after my morning shower I put my pajamas BACK ON sometimes. I know I know, I'm getting a hobby, the weather will warm up & I'll finally get to the end of my midlife crisis.
